L O V E

to be quite honest
i thought love was a thing of fairy tales;
or something constructed
in the minds of the insecure
& weak. it gave them something to strive for
something to cling to
something...

to be quite honest
i laid my bets on other horses
the flashy ones
i suddenly had so many options
& i didn't know what to do with myself
"take a number & get in line"

to be quite honest
i underestimated you
until the moment i heard your voice
& then i was hooked
something told me that you were different
but i kept trying to fight it
i suddenly had so many options

to be quite honest
i thought you didn't like me at first
when we sat on the subway
& you focused your attention on
problem solving
but not me
i realized later that you were problem solving
for me
& that you would continue to be my problem solver
my white knight
for as long as i would accept it

to be quite honest
i never thought i'd meet someone like you
open minded yet with strong morals
the kind of guy who doesn't want to lie
to his mother about what he's doing
the kind of guy you can respect

to be quite honest
i felt like i loved you right away
& it scared me but at the same time
it didn't. because you made me feel
unafraid. & every day the feeling just kept
building &
building &
when i finally told you, i wished that i told you
yesterday. the week before. last month.
because i loved you all those times.
because you made me fall in love with you.